A tale of abhorrent truth and self deception

Ah so commonplace was the day in which the conventional caprice of growing out my facial hair became apparent to my conscious. So mundane a task it seemed, never had I considered the effort and debt to my soul that it would take as it grew to recognizable lengths. I became attached and forlorn to the inevitability of my shaving. Never again would I have to undertake a task of such newly realized atrocious malice.
But alas as it grew, it took with it a growing place in the heart of my mind. It had become a beloved benign tumor I dare not remove from my fragile brain. Oh what calamitous intent may lead me to shave I daren’t think of. Irreligious be the day the very notion of such a blasphemy portray its self in my mind. I became enveloped in the beauty I found in it, though it was scraggly and badly cut I found an attachment I dare not sever as to do that would sever a very part of my soul.
It is with great regret that I sit here now with a face bare of all hair and write to you.
The notion beseeched me in what cannot be described as more than an impulse. It was only after the perpetration of the act did I realize how atrocious it was, for I had severed the bond I had created, the very attachment I had sworn to uphold!
Oh wrenched fate why dost thou thus! Why play with an object of my heart and subject to the incompetence of my compulsion!
Cursed though this may be I dare not doubt the logic, however forlorn it may be, that caused me to commit such heresy against myself.

May the lord Have mercy on our wrenched souls

Well why not?

Its the queen

I made a List

You don't realize how much code this took
I'm not using any relevant infer to fill up the tabs I just want to have this table style somewhere
sorry to dumb this idiocy on this venue for you eyes to have to bear

Juice	kittens	elswise	oblong
1	500	an a half	sprightly Chickens
2	LOL	why	too lazy to put relevent info
jucy	thats	not	how you spell it
mispell more	more	quite	indubdialy
number-->	310	greenish hue	Brownish
6	chemistry	yes	Pride and predjuice

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Motivation

Motivation is defined as the act or instance of causing with a reason to act a certain way. Inspiration is can be described as the object that motivates or inspires, or the state of mind achieved wherein one is inspired. Some claim that they are inspired spontaneously as if being enlightened in a single step.

I have to admit inspiring occurrences and motivational events can seem to enlighten the mind and body in a time frame that seems spontaneous. The truth however is that enlightenment and inspiration is not as simple as an act or object that motivates spontaneously. No inspiration is not a simple realization achieved in circumstance nor is motivation something that can be offered in a speech. 

The principles of inspiration, enlightenment, and even motivation are achieved not by an action, these ideals are grown to fruition in the subtleties of the subconscious and the almost unrecognizable inherent set of logic we follow. Inspiration and enlightenment can only truly be achieved when the fruit of the mind is ripened and fed to our conscious in an act similar to the primal sin. This realization or inspiration that are mind is able to express in emotion and even speech is not a product of a simple act, but a manifestation of our subconscious's efforts to best apply logic and to work in a manner you deem efficient. You can say that you suddenly realized a greater truth, as Adam and Eve did when committing the primal sin, by simply eating the fruit of knowledge. But this is impossible because without the subconscious working arduously and applying the logic you use unknowingly use to the logic you are presented with you cannot change your understanding or realize a reason to do something.

I believe that inspiration and enlightenment can only truly be achieved when you are able to seamlessly understand your subconscious and its logic, the logic you do not inherently realize that you follow. Once you can understand what you are really thinking and the complex electrical impulses that run through your brain you can change you logic quickly on both a conscious and subconscious level and realize all the inspirational forces that you encounter, in a true act of enlightenment.

            You can make claims that you where suddenly presented with inspirational or enlightening occurrences that suddenly caused you to see differently. But the truth remains that, that conscious realization is a manifestation of subconscious realizations so primal that you where not able to notice them in till your subconscious was able to ripen the fruit that was its presentation to your conscious. Without these subconscious workings you would simply dismiss the inspirational or enlightening occurrences that where presented to you as false or strange.

Practical Calarifacation

I would be defying my own principle if I did not admit to my realization of how the last sentence of what I said in the previous post, specifically (Kill someone do things you find vile and hurt some one you love), can be easily misconstrued due to my hastily worded ideals that I thought appropriate to share.

            The point I was trying to convey in writing this obscurity was that an efficient way to convince yourself that you are not bound by the actions of fate nor your own actions is to do something you realize is self destructive. What I mean is that an action done not to your logical benefit is in fact an action capable of shattering the glass wall of fate that you may find yourself encaged in. These actions are ones that allow you to throw off the chains and look into the fire of Plato’s cave rather then just staring at the wall of shadows he imagined the fate bound man looking at. A self destructive action is considered strange and startles those who see it enacted, so because self-destructive actions are unpredictable they are the key to the personal realization of choice. No one can predict your actions if you follow a set of logic that seems sound but then you commit an action that goes against it. So by defying your own logic you can convince yourself that you are in control and are not bound by the social rules of society, and this realization will eventually lead to the ability to deny yourself of fate and convince your self anything no matter how untrue it may be. For instance convincing yourself that you are immortal.

            I follow a set of tangible logic that I change every now and then based on my observation and experiences. I can say that my enactments of self-destructive actions that I realized were self-destructive have allowed me to convince my subconscious that I am not bound to the fate of death. To some extent I realize that this is false but to a more prominent extent I realize that I need to think with the mind of an immortal. For if I apply the logic of fate to my actions and realizations they all become meaningless. So the meaning I have created for my life is that the chains of fate do not bind me so I can do what I want, as there will be time for everything. This delusion is necessary and though I realize it is self-destructive it is in this realization that allows me to act in a manner considered relatively sane.

            I see it to be more efficient to delude yourself rather than take to mind the truth and inevitability’s of reality, and it is of this belief that I state this.

 "Delusions, lies, and fantasies will always have a stronger impact and the betterment of humanity and human efficiency than truth and reality ever could."

-Dr. Braden Phd

I was browsing a random image board website when I came across a thread where the creator said he wanted to commit suicide and asked what form of suicide would be the best. He claimed that life was pointless and he wanted to end it all in his despair he posted the adjacent image and said that it surmised his feelings.-->

I responded by saying

If you claim that you find your life and actions pointless then suicide is against your own principle. You are by committing suicide committing an act of predictability and an act that has been done countless times in the past. Life is only pointless if you take to heart the inevitability that someday you will die and there is no way out. You yourself can prevent the pointless repetition and meaninglessness of your life by doing unpredictable acts rather than the committing the sad conformity of suicide. Instead if letting inevitability and meaninglessness run your thoughts think only of things that bring you pleasure, and deny that you are going to die, say instead that you will find immortality and kiss the your sad world of inevitability's goodbye. Think not in terms of a being with a set life span but think as a being not bound by the rules of society. Kill someone do things you find vile and hurt some one you love, only in doing this will you find your ability to throw off the chains of fate that you find your self weighed down by.

He responded to my post in saying

"wow man. Thanks. You just gave me meaning to my life. Thanks bro"

With words I was able to conjure in a matter of minutes I was able to prevent suicide and save a life. 

The felling accompanied by the realization that I may have in fact saved a life is a felling I now find myself unable to describe, but if I had to I would say that realizing the power of my words has inspired me and left a felling of inspiration that I will not soon forget